Saturday, August 21, 2010

Being the Stud

For the most part, I am an intorvert.  I mean I like my alone time, I like small groups, feel alone in big groups, and feel drained after being surrounded by people.  But there are moments when I love to be the life of the party, I like to be the guy who seems always happy, who seems different from everyone else.  If its meeting new people, I am not shy at all because it is something I love to do.  When it comes to being thrown into a new group of people I love to start introducing myself, making jokes, and getting to know everyone.  In moments like those I feel like a stud, hehe.  I mean sometimes I wish I could be that guy all the time.  In those moment I feel cool, I feel appreciated, popular, admired.  Honestly, though, those times that I feel like that are very few.  Other times I wish I could be that guy, that guy making the jokes, directing the conversation, making the group fun.  In these other times I am usually on the sidelines with nothing to say.  And sometimes the reason I say nothing is because i have nothing to say. I don't make stuff up, I only speak when I have something to contribute.  With all that having been said,  today was a freshman orientation of sorts, and I was thrown in a group with all new people, and well needless to say I felt like the stud, hehe :)
     With college starting, and everything going on, I find myself overwhelmed with all the things that I need to pray about.  There is family, friends, finding an accountability partner, maybe finding a mentor, for the cross country team, temptation, a girl/girls, career choice, witnessing, meeting new people, getting a close group of Christian friends.... I mean really the list just goes on and on.  I mean how do you narrow down prayer?  All of those things are important things that I need to pray for, but there is so much.  I feel like there are so many different things going on in my mind that I don't know which I should focus on most at the moment, because they feel like almost all of them need top priority.  I guess I must have faith that the Holy spirit will intercede for me with groans and express the prayers that I can not.

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