Lost

Often there comes a time when I stop and ask myself what I am feeling. To try and describe what is going on in my life I usually ask myself that question: what are you feeling, and the only word that I can think of to describes it is lost.  I feel purposeless, without a course, puzzled, confused, little; its as if sometimes everyone knows what they want to do; everyone knows where they are going, and everyone is excited about it, where as I don't even know where I am, let alone where I am going.  I've always kind of believed God wants us to remain open, to not plan too many things, but it's in times like these I wonder if maybe I should know where I am going, maybe I am not listening to Him, and those Christians around me who do know are listening to him.  Its times like these that I wonder what does anyone see in me?  What could God possibly have planned for me?  Whatever it is, it seems like he gives me no direction to follow, not even a simple one, like North or South.  In these times, it seems that it becomes even easier for sin to enter into my life and make me feel even more lost.  So often it makes me feel out of control, which I always think is a good thing, because I am not supposed to be in control, God is, but sometimes it just feels like he never exercises His control, and I end up just floating through life.  I don't want to float through life, I want to live it, with a purpose that God gives me, but I only wish I knew the direction that purpose lay so that I wouldn't feel lost in a lonely world.